What Have We Done?

I had a dream last night that left me burdened to share this snippet of my story with all of you today. Praying that your faith is strengthened by it in some way

In November of 2014 I married the girl I met in high school and we were together for 5 years prior to getting married.

Up until October of that same year, this wasn’t even an option for us and so when it became legal, because we loved each other and longed for acceptance, we decided to take that step.

However, the acceptance we longed for was not granted by that courthouse wedding nor the celebratory meal with her family afterward. In fact, once we returned home later that evening, we both found ourselves on the floor of our bathroom, crying…saying “what have we done?!”

See, I thought that because it was now “legal”, that it would somehow lessen the disapproval from others regarding our choices or at least invalidate the opinions of the religious people in our lives. Neither of which it ever did.

It couldn’t.

Simply because the law of this land is not the law that’s written on our hearts and it does not hold the power to condemn or exonerate our conscience.

Abiding by the law of this land may make you a good citizen of this country, it may even co-sign or comfort you in your sin, but there are many things that this law allows that will prevent you from entering the Kingdom of God.

For many years, this experience of our wedding day was kept just between us. Maybe because we tend to hide the things or the moments that prove to ourselves or others when we’re on the wrong side of something.

What I hoped would help offset the feelings of disapproval only created a larger divide between where I was and where I needed to be in order to walk in true freedom. Where I needed to be in order for my soul to be saved for eternity.

I am eternally grateful for the gifts of repentance, salvation and His mercy that kept me alive until I was able to fully surrender to His will and ways.